Found in Anger

Has your spouse ever told you that you have some undesirable quality? (definition of undesirable: that which might limit you in your eternal progression- it could damn you in otherwords :) ) Well anger is mine and as human nature you deny it, rationalize it, or whatever. Then your spouse documents that "quality" in video/picture or out of the mouth of many witnesses..... well "any who", my wife documented my "anger problem". I can't deny it any more.

Since residency, I have been missing that self torture-masochistic component of my life and the military has given me a replacement for that "special pain" that residency used to occupy-----RUNNING! Well, I started running at officer's training and I have been running every since- five months now. We started with a few miles in officer's training and well, after the training was over, most normal officer's go back to some kind of regular eratic excercise in the military... me? No way! If running a few miles hurts, why not run a lot more and hurt yourself even more! So 3 miles turned into 5 miles, 5 turned into 8, 8 turned into 12, 12 into 15 and you get the picture.....so I got my base run up to about 6 miles which I'd run 3-4 times a week during lunch at work. Then I decided that that endorphin rush wasn't enough, and since I am a junky extraordinaire, I decided to pursue these long Saturday runs. Well two weeks ago on the 1 of December I embarked on the grandaddy of them all, I was going to try and run 26.2 miles- or something close to it. I start early in the morning as to not ruin my whole Saturday. The problem with this kind of run is that when you do it officially, they have water stations and little snack stations (every couple of miles) which you have to have if you are going to run for four solid hours. The body is kind of funny like that... When you embark on one of these runs all by yourself, you have to use strategery to pass by water sources and you have to pack granola bars and fruit snacks in the pockets of your shorts. When I was on mile 18 or so, I was in need of some water so I called my wife while I was running (I was on call at the hospital so I was running with my cell phone). As she came and found me out on some country road in Texas, she saved me with some water. I wanted her to come check on me in about a half hour so I gave her the route that I was running and she repeatedly did not understand my directions. You have to imagine this that I have just run 18 miles, and I am running again. She is driving right beside me as I start running again and I am trying to breath, run and give my wife directions. Needless to say, when she said for the third time that she didn't understand what I was saying I got a little testy and mad. She happened to have the camera and documented my anger on film. I had been caught! I have since talked to my lawyer and he told me to claim the "labor-anger" clause in that running a marathon is as close to labor for a guy as he's going to get thus all outbursts and angry comments should be pardoned and understood for the anguishing context from which they come........ yeah, I know, my wife hasn't bought it either but I thought it was good legal strategy. My wife says that she never got angry and never said unkind words to me when she went through 5 labors (4 of them without epidurals) and thus the judge threw out my only defense.

For those of you unmarried, you have a natural and spiritual desire and tendancy to want to marry someone better than you, but I have to warn you that this is the consequence. In the presence of their superior spiritual, physical, emotional, social, and mental capacity, all of your pleas for patience and acceptance of your weaknesses kind of lose merit. I'm not officially endorsing marrying "below one's self" but you do have to recognize some of those advantages/disadvantages (make a list sometimes bad is good and good is bad).